Brussels Saturday

BRUSSELS SATURDAY
(CORWOOD 0817)

IN MY MIND
IT’S SO HOT
IN MY BODY
I DON’T FEEL
THE COLD OUTSIDE

I ONLY THINK
ABOUT YOU
WITH ME
AS WE WALK

WHERE WE GO
DOESN’T MATTER

THOSE WE SEE
ARE NOT THERE

THOSE WE HEAR
DO NOT TALK

IT’S YOU
IN MY MIND

IT’S SO HOT
IN MY BODY
I DON’T FEEL
THE COLD OUTSIDE

FRIDAY MORNING
THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME
WITH THE SETTINGS AND CONFIGURATIONS
OF MY CELLPHONE YESTERDAY
I NOW CAN ENJOY THE WEATHER
AND THE BATTERY POWER AT A GLANCE

BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE
THANK YOU FOR YOUR ART
THE IMAGE OF SATURN
AND ONE OF ITS MOONS
IN GLORIOUS COLORS
I WOULD NOT HAVE CHOSEN
ON MY OWN

AND WHEN I OPEN MY CELLPHONE
I SEE THAT IMAGE YOU PUT THERE
AND NOTHING CAN COMPARE
BECAUSE IT WAS YOUR SELECTION
NOT THE STANDARD CHOICE

AND WHEN THE POLICE CARS
DRIVE BY THEIR SPOTLIGHT ON THE PARK
AT 2:17 A.M.
THE TIME I SEE ABOVE SATURN
IT MAKES ME HAPPY
AMONGST ALL THIS SADNESS

AND I’M THANKFUL FOR THAT
SO VERY THANKFUL

I DON’T KNOW WHAT I BRING TO THE TABLE
BUT YOUR HELP IS SO VERY APPRECIATED

 

 

 

MY CELLPHONE IS A FRIEND
BECAUSE YOU’RE AT THE OTHER END
MAYBE
SOMETIMES
JUST MAYBE

IT’S ALWAYS BY MY SIDE
WAKING
SLEEPING

IF YOU’RE NOT HERE
AT LEAST YOU’RE THERE
AT THE OTHER END
OF THE CELLPHONE LINE
MAYBE
SOMETIMES
JUST MAYBE

MY NUMBER IS FOREVER
IT DOESN’T CHANGE
SO YOU ALWAYS HAVE IT
IF YOU SHOULD EVER NEED IT

I KNOW THAT NUMBERS COME AND GO
ARE DISCARDED AND FORGOTTEN
IT’S ONLY A BRIEF TIME OF LIFE
THAT THEY ARE IMPORTANT
BUT MAYBE
JUST MAYBE
IT WON’T BE THAT WAY

 

 

 

LIFE GOES ON
WITH YOU OR WITHOUT YOU
WITH YOU IS A SYMPHONY
WITHOUT YOU IS A DIRGE

RIGHT NOW
WELL RIGHT NOW
I CAN’T PUT THE PIECES TOGETHER

THERE’S ONLY A SOFT BREEZE
SOMETIMES FLOWING BY
RUSTLING THE LEAVES
OF A TURNING COLOR TREE

AND OUT PAST THE SIDEWALK
WHERE NO ONE WALKS
THIS TIME OF NIGHT
SOME SPIRITS ARE THERE

IF I CAN ONLY SEE THEM
THE SPIRITS YOU LEFT
WHEN YOU DEPARTED
AND I WAS LEFT HANGING
WITHOUT YOU

MAYBE YOU DIDN’T REALLY LEAVE
BUT IT FELT THAT WAY
AND NOW I’M BROKEN LONELY
ABIDING IN A PLACE ONLY I KNOW

 

 

 

IRON RAILINGS PROTECT ME
FROM FALLING TO THE GROUND
NOT THAT I CARE TOO MUCH
BUT I MIGHT TOMORROW

THERE’S A WILD PLACE
OUT FAR AWAY
THAT HAS NO HIGH PLACES
WHERE YOU TRAVERSE THE GROUND
IN SEARCH OF NOTHING
EXCEPT THAT WHICH YOU FIND

AND MOST WOULD SAY
WHAT’S THIS ALL ABOUT
BUT I SAY
THIS IS ABOUT NOTHING

WHAT ELSE
WALK ON WALK ON
TO NOWHERE

WHAT DO YOU THINK
YOU GOT A HANDLE ON IT
YOU THINK YOU KNOW

ALL YOUR BRIGHT ANSWERS
ARE SHIELDED BY THE IRON RAILING

BARE YOUR BODY TO THE DEATH
YOU FIND AS YOU TRAVERSE
THE LONELY FIELDS
YOU FIND YOURSELF WALKING THROUGH

 

 

 

I DIE TODAY
I KILL ALL OF ME
ONLY TO BECOME
WHAT I DON’T KNOW

ALL THE WORLD SUCCUMBS
WITH ME
ANNIHILATION
EXPLOSION
EARTHQUAKE

I’M FALLING INTO
GOD KNOWS WHERE
AND THAT’S THE POINT
I DON’T CARE

TAKE ME ALL YOU ANGELS
THE ANGEL I HAD
DEPARTED

I’M GROUNDED
LEFT TO WALK THE EARTH
LOST MY HEAVENLY STARS

WHAT DID I THINK
I COULD BE THERE
IN THE HEAVENS

MAYBE TOMORROW
BUT NOW I’M BACK TO EARTH
HEAVY WITH THE SOIL
OH FOR THE AIRY CLOUDS

 

 

 

THESE FLOORS THAT I KNOW
I WOULD GLADLY GIVE AWAY
FORGET THEM FOREVER
IF ONLY
I COULD WALK YOUR FLOORS

BY MYSELF I DON’T CARE
MAYBE I’M LOST
I’M HAPPY TO BE LOST
AS LONG AS YOU FIND ME
I’LL WALK YOUR FLOORS
FOREVER

THAT’S WHY I WAS BORN
I DON’T CARE ABOUT ME
I FIND ME IN YOU

SOME MIGHT SAY I’M HELPLESS
I DON’T AGREE
I ASSUME ALL POWER
AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME
IF YOU DO
IF NOT I’M THE SAME
LOST SOUL I ALWAYS WAS

YOU SEE YOUR LOVE
GIVES ME SUCH LIFE
APART FROM THIS DEATH
I DIE EVERY DAY

 

 

 

INEBRIATION
I’M DEAD
EXCEPT I’M ALIVE
IN SOME SMALL WAY

BUT THE AGITATION
SEEMS TO BE BLURRED
MY MIND IS AVERTED
AWAY FROM ALL THOSE THOUGHTS
TAKING OVER MY WELL-BEING
IF I HAD THAT

FOR A WHILE
I THOUGHT I DID
BUT NOW I’M HERE
CLAWING AT THE MOON

WHERE ARE YOU MY HEART
DISAPPEARED IN THE NIGHT
EVEN THOUGH IT WAS DAY
WHEN THE PAIN TOOK ME OVER

HOW WILL I EVER KNOW
THAT SOMEBODY LIKES ME
HOW CAN I EVER BE SURE
OF ANYONE

MY BROKEN LOVE ON THE ROCKS
OCEAN WAVES CRASHING OVER

 

 

 

I STARTED OUT THINKING OF YOU
I DON’T WANT TO STOP NOW
YOUR ILLUMINATION IS BRILLIANT
IT’S ONLY MY DARKNESS
THAT FOILS ME

OH GOD HOW I LOVE YOU
COLORED LEAVES RESTING ON YOUR KNEES

WHY DO I KILL MYSELF
CONSTANTLY
BUT LET’S RETURN
TO LOVING YOU

FORGET ANYTHING ELSE
THE JOY THE JOY
THE EXHILARATION
CAN I MAKE YOU HAPPY
YES THAT’S MY LIFE

BUT I SADDENED YOU
AND I DON’T KNOW HOW
TO OVERCOME THAT

I’M A PICKLE IN SALT BRINE
MAYBE I CAN CURE SOMEONE
OF SOMETHING
SOMEDAY
ONCE AGAIN
MAYBE

BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

PHANTOM TOUCHES
HE WAS LOOKING AT ME
HIS EYES NEVER LEFT MY FACE
HE SEEMED A BIT EXCITED
I SAW HIM CRACK A SMILE

HIS EYES WERE GLOWING
LIKE THE TIP OF A CIGARETTE THAT’S LIT
WHEN SOMEONE’S TAKING A DRAG OFF OF IT

I SHIFTED IN MY SEAT
I REARRANGED MY CLOTHES
HE ASKED ME “WOULD YOU LIKE TO…”
AND I THOUGHT “OOOHHH…..OOOHHH…..OOOHHH…..YES!”
BUT INSTEAD I SAID…”MMHHMM”

WE WALKED TO A BETTER SPOT
WE NEEDED A LITTLE MORE ROOM
WE GOT REAL CLOSE

IT WAS ALL A PART OF MY PLAN
TO UNHOOK YOU

I COULD SMELL HIS NECK
IT WAS MY FIRST TIME
SO I TURNED MY BACK TO HIM
I DIDN’T WANT HIM TO SEE MY FACIAL EXPRESSIONS

I FELT THESE PHANTOM TOUCHES
OR MAYBE THEY WERE REAL

AT FIRST WE MOVED SLOWLY
THEN IT BECAME FASTER
AND THEN WE WERE IN A FRENZY

MY BODY STARTED RAINING
HE PUSHED ME AWAY
AND THEN HE PULLED ME CLOSER
HIS LIPS TOUCHED MY EARLOBES
AND HE STARTED TO SPEAK

THAT’S WHEN THE SONG ENDED

WE PUSHED PAST THE PEOPLE
ON THE DANCE FLOOR

WE MADE OUR WAY BACK TO THE TABLE
WE SAT DOWN
AND TURNED TOWARD THE OTHERS
AND WATCHED AND WATCHED AND WATCHED AND WATCHED AND WATCHED

AS THEY TALKED ABOUT THE WEATHER

MAYBE YOU’VE DIED
I DIDN’T HEAR BACK FROM YOU AFTER I CALLED
I HAD A SINKING FEELING
WHAT IF YOU’VE DIED

I DIDN’T FEEL YOUR BODY NEARBY
I HAD A WORRISOME SUSPICION
MAYBE YOU’VE DIED

I DIDN’T IMAGINE OUR INNER CONVERSATIONS
WHAT IF YOU’VE DIED

WOULD THE MORGUE CALL ME
WOULD THEY GIVE ME ALL THE DETAILS
YOU’RE DEAD
DO I HAVE TO IDENTIFY THE BODY

I SENT YOU A TEXT AND YOU DIDN’T IMMEDIATELY RESPOND
WHAT IF YOU’VE DIED

I THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD

THE BLUE SKY
I TOLD YOU WHEN
WE WERE RIDING ON CLOUDS
IN THE BLUE SKY
I WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU
THAT WE WERE US
NOT ANYTHING DIFFERENT
YOU SAID YOU KNEW ME
LONG BEFORE I KNEW YOU
AND WHEN I SEE YOU
THE TIME DISAPPEARS
AND THEN I WONDER
HOW I COULD HAVE YOU
SO I STOPPED THINKING
ABOUT THE WHY’S AND WHERE’S
AND JUST LOOK AT YOU
AND FALL DOWN ON MY KNEES
BECAUSE I ADORE YOU
I NEVER WANT TO BE
ANYWHERE EXCEPT WITH YOU